“To me! To me!
To you and you and you, you, and you.”
–“La Vie Boheme,” RENT
Miles last week: 18
Total miles: 333.5
On both Monday and Friday, I left work early because of snow. I am not a terribly aggressive driver, so I took the entire forty-five-mile drive home pretty slow. People passed me the entire time.
Sure, I maybe could have gone a little faster, but I figured, why risk it? I drive a ten-year-old Ford Focus. I’ve probably spent more on repairs than it’s worth and most of the time I would like to send it over a cliff–you know, in a mostly “Sure, I’d like smash you into pieces but I’d also be sad if you were gone” sort of way.
I have a complicated relationship with my car. This is beside the point.
The point is, I didn’t drive any faster than I felt comfortable. My philosophy was that I wasn’t racing anyone. I was the only one going to my house, and those other people may know better what their cars are capable of. I just did my thing and tried not to worry about what other people were doing while I rocked out to the Rent soundtrack.
(Yes, you heard that right. La Vie Boheme, baby.)
For some reason, it is harder to have this non-racing philosophy in other areas of life. Like the gym, for example.
I am not someone who has mastered the art of not comparing myself to others. It’s hard not to see other people and think you should be doing what they’re doing because they are obviously superior beings who have everything together.
I’m worried it might be a permanent condition. I think I’m just always going to hate the ginger bastard gliding along at ten miles an hour on the treadmill next to me (well, now he’s a few machines down since I’ve been relegated back to the elliptical).
Seriously, what’s that guy’s problem? He doesn’t even break a sweat. What a jerk. GO RUN A MARATHON OR SOMETHING. I hope you can’t find a port-a-potty when you need it.
Anyway, there’s nothing wrong with a little healthy competition, but you can’t always be looking at what everyone else is doing. Trust me–I know how difficult this is. You can only try to do better than you did the day before.
Perhaps the only way to fix this comparison disorder is to constantly pretend I’m driving in the snow and trying not to die. Apparently that’s the only time I remember that everyone is doing their own thing and I’m the only one going to my specific destination.
It’s not a race.
Unless you’re in a race.
Then it’s a race.
But you probably shouldn’t be in a race all the time.
If you are, you should probably rethink some things.
That’s a post for a different day.
I drive like that in the winter too. It’s scary!! And I think a little comparison is good at the gym. It keeps you challenging yourself. If not speed, you can always change the incline or do ‘sprintutes’ (sprint minutes, yeah I made it up but I think it’s kind of cute and works…) Definitely, though, your number one competitor is always Yesterday You. 🙂 miss you!!
I miss you, too! And I got your letter–I’m in the process of answering it! ❤
Yay! I love getting mail that doesn’t say ‘pay this amount’ or ‘you’re already pre-approved’ somewhere on it. 🙂